It has a powerful message. It motivates you to pursue what you want. It gives hope that somehow, there is a possibility to achieve what you want. Just don’t give up.
That is, if you know what you want..
When I was young, I liked doing many things: I read, I wrote, I drew, I danced, I sang, I played guitar, I played sports, I joined groups, I participated in events – almost every activity that passed in front of me; things that interest me.
I had many dreams, too. There was a time when I dreamt of being a doctor so I can save lives; the next day I thought to be a policewoman to fight crime; then I decided to be a lawyer instead, to straighten out injustice; and I changed it again as this time, I was fascinated by the scientists who invented things, so I aspired to be one of them.
“That’s normal,” they said, “for young people to change dreams, to have many interests. You will know what you want when the right time comes..”
You know what the funny part is? I became none of what I dreamt of. And the funniest? When the time came where I needed to decide what I wanted to do – I can’t. I just can’t. It’s not because I didn’t like anything, but I liked too many things and apparently, I can’t be just like that. It doesn’t work that way. I had to choose. I needed to choose. And whatever I choose, will be a big part of my future. In fact, that’s going to be my future, they said. So I had to be careful, and that froze me.
It was fun though, having many dreams. Thinking, pondering what it feels like to achieve each one of them..
In the end I took a course my father thought would be good for me. It’s not bad after all. I graduated and found a job easily. As the years went by, life got better and better. I got what I needed and achieved what I wanted – that’s what I thought.
“What do I want? Like, what do I REALLY want? Is this REALLY what I wanted?” – These are the questions I started to asked myself.
When is “the right” time to know what you really want? Is going to college supposed to be “the right” time? What if you can’t choose? Does it mean you are just being indecisive? Or afraid? Or it is a sign that something is wrong with you?
Is there even a “right” time?
As I searched for an answer, I started to envy those people who already knew what they wanted; those who, at an early age, already knew what they were supposed to do or where they were supposed to go to achieve what they wanted.
Whereas me – searching, thinking, asking – “What should I do?”
“Am I thinking this too hard? Am I making this too complicated?” Maybe I already knew what I wanted. Maybe I already achieved it and I just wanted something new, that’s all.
I hope I knew the answers. But I don’t.